isnt it funny how old memories can still make you tear? haha...

for those of you who catch this, i still love you and miss you dearly.. and im here, always have been and always will be. dont forget that. ever. muah.

happy days kids. mele kalikimaka and all that sheat.take care of yourselves. im still looking after you all. got your back ^_~

                             ~* june 1 to september 25 *~ 

 "too short a time"...i love you all stars!! all of you..cept the guy that was a jerk to melissa cuz i love melissa..looooooooots.....

(listening to old school jams, 2004 related things, looking at pics and old convos, xangas and the likes... this really isnt a good thing to be doing ..er) i knew i said that this was dead but i miss hearing from you guys so, send comments as your messages..any time. id be glad to have them and hear from you all. i really do love you all soo much. i want to get off this god-forsaken mountain so badly and fall back into the world that is notre dame and high school. i miss it all so much... i miss you all so much... i can't eat, i can't sleep and i can't breathe..where is my air?...~help me to breathe~ (duvet) there has never been a greater pain then the one that grows in your heart as you feel yourself growing apart from those that you love and cherish the most... i feel like being alone..no i feel like being with only notre dame... nothing but love for you all.... neone keeping updated on the football? we're undefeated so far... oh, nd...i want to go back so bad but im scared that if i see it again...ill just start crying~~~

(and for all you turds out there who missed it [tho i love most of you]..i present to you the debut dancing ALL STARS [BOO!!]  pic compliments of amanda panda. i cant explain it but i miss you guy soo much..i might have said that earlier..i think, but i just really really mean it. best debut ever for the one and only princess and of course, the loveable kuya jr. im sorry it had to come to a close but i was happy to have celebrated such an event and get to be in the court too. such happy moments come so rarely in this world. and so with that all the debuts, all the parties, all the high school seems to have vanished behind the mist and come to a close... is it really all over?)

so with that i end..with a debut. which i find very fitting. i have made mai aim profile mai mini journal... if you see yourself quoted, be happy. onlie the best quotes make it there. i love you all..so so much. why did it all have to end?...and so soon?

"autobiography..ashlee simpson"

You think you know me
Word on the street is that you do
You want my history
What others tell you won’t be true

I walked a thousand miles while everyone was asleep
Nobody’s really seen my million subtleties

Got stains on my t-shirt and I’m the biggest flirt
Right now I’m solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

I hear you talking
Well, it’s my turn now
I’m talking back
Look in my eyes
So you can see just where I’m at

I walked a thousand miles to find one river of peace
I walked a million more to find what fishing means

Got stains on my t-shirt and I’m the biggest flirt
Right now I’m solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
Got bruises on my heart and sometimes I get dark
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

I’m the baddest girl in this messed up world
I’m the crazy girl in this crazy world
I’m a simple girl in a complex world
A nasty girl, you wanna get with me?
You wanna mess with me?

Got stains on my t-shirt and I’m the biggest flirt
Right now I’m solo, but that will be changing eventually, oh
I laugh more than I cry
You piss me off, good-bye
Got stains on my t-shirt and I’m the biggest flirt
If you want my auto, want my autobiography
Baby, just ask me

kris leaves for peru tmo, hawai'i has hot boys, suzaine verry sorry for missing practice, i'll learn the dance with eric perhaps. now on to the important things....JENN"S DEBUT!!!!!!!!

it really was incredible and i am so glad to have been a part of it. haha funny i started this xanga around amanda's debut time..much has changed then and well..change isnt all bad. jen was so beautiful and the dance went amazingly we had soo much fun. i danced all night and missed out on a bit cuz my mother was there... erg. yes i did come a bit late to the debut and im very sorry but it was all good. had teh girls help my change and we were gooood. even though i had two days to learn the dance it was incredible i really wanted to pull it off for jenn plus it was fun. i love that court and being with them.. party for the real 18th woot woot! didnt get to sleep over..very pissed over that..and because of that i overslept and missed suzaine the next day. yea..ergs but im chill at this moment thanks to amanda reyes,kris and romy. good times. had debut practice today blah blah. wanted to say more to jenn but..we'll see if i plan on immortalizing it on this xanga here. lol maybe later. i love you jenn ^_^ always smile for me, you deserve to.you deserved taht debut and so much more..ill visit you in lmu you save me some room to sleep on during the weekends..heehe.

now some background story: well i didt want to go to hawaii right? neways blood family is such crap and im so tired of it all. im done. how can i be with these people when they cant even respect the real me, they wont let me be. this is my life how can they call me jealous and ungrateful and selfish after all i've done i mean fucking shit its just a bunch of crap and hell im not going to take it from my friends so im not going to take it from them.they were fucking telling me not to be in debuts, i was wasting their time and money and gas and shit then tell my why they fucking bout a timeshare and that stupid lexus and this stupid house? tell me that! that i should have asked them..well why didnt they stop me earlier? why didnt they tell me when i was four that i shouldnt make friends i mean fuck that. if i didnt make friends i would have never found my true family. so far i have thoroughly enjoyed these debuts and looked on these girls as part of me, my heart, my loves and family. dad said that debuts were wastes and taht im not changing neones life. he sed it doesnt change nething. well tell me, did he have a debut? no! and how can he say that this isnt because it is making people happy and thats what should really matter not some stupid "investment". these people here in this house are not my family and i am so done with them. its over. how could they accuse me of being jealous and trying to live through these debuts? im just trying to help my friends and make them happy. why would i be that selfish? my fucking parents made me cry that happy 25th evening [real reasoni was late] but i said to myself i wont do anything and i wont say anything becuase this is jenn's day and i will be there for her. i stayed as long as i could because i belonged there.. i am her court. how can you call that jealousy and selfishness? you cant! so fuck you bitches..all you are to me is money and possibly transportation. leave me alone now, i dont need you and never did. so try and live without me, see if you can.im going to be with my real family now...so with that..jenn, lets party!!